Monday, April 02, 2012

Childhood lines that stick

So the other day I was writing a what was I writing...I think an application of some kind and as I wrote I remembered a line that my mum told me when i was a little girl, "Penny you have gifted hands.." that was a line that has stuck with me up until today and has found its way to simplymequeenpen.blogspot.com...Are there lines that were said to you growing up that have stuck with you (maybe haunted you) until today....some have shaped your destiny - like anotehr of my mums favorite - I remember her sittign us down one day - I think I was barely out of high school and she looked us straight in the eye - my sister and brother and told us "You people - yeah she calls us you people- I love her...anyhu she said something like you people you know hamna mashamba like other children soo mkae mkijua.." we laughed it off at the time but I believe that line has been an integral part if my life as soon as I walked out of the green gates - Quabbz..I knew I had to work twice as hard  in everything that I did coz there was no one waiting to hand me anything.And now that I look at the amazing things that my sister has and continues to do, i think at the back of her head the line hauna mashamba keeps playing over and over...I guess as I come to the end of my run at Salem State I was reminiscing with my mum how the whole journey started I guess thats where this blog post has come from...We were remembering shoppping for warm clothes for winter in Ngara, struggling to look for a bank statement for the embassy gosh yani the I20 read annual tuition estimate plus room and board $20,000 and yet I could not afford the application fee - I remember asking my dad for the money - forty dollars I remember and he told me to wait a while - and between him and my mother they were able to com up with the money...And here I am x years later - about to graduate - I was telling someone heh me I want to have exhausted all the awards and scholarships from the school by the time am leaving.....gosh so as my journey comes to an end I can only look back in awe of Gods faithfulness, my family, Dennz - amazing people who have walked with me - picked me up when I stumbled and wanted to give up...The line thats replaying in ,my head as I write this You will never know the height of my joy until you know the depth of my sorrow...So as i wrap it up I thank my mother for childhood lines that remain engraved in my memory - well some not too great cough cough but most of them have pushed me to higher heights...